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And here we are, almost two years later. Somehow I find myself excited to look through my old journal entries, although I know they will upset me. So much has changed since my last post! I DID graduate with my Master's degree (go me); Lance quit his job at Aldi to pursue a career at Team Detroit (an advertising company) where he is much happier. Also, almost a year ago...he broke up with me.

That was probably the biggest shock to my system that I have ever experienced. It completely blindsided me. We were having a discussion about getting married when he told me he didn't think he wanted to get married anymore. In general; not just to me. It was so weird and for months after that he became someone foreign to me--acting in ways I never would have imagined. It was so surreal. For that reason, last summer was a big daze and I really did think I was going to wake up one morning and everything would be back to the way it was. Sometimes I still feel that way. It wasn't until mid-July I came to accept my position. I mean, I'm pretty much the coolest person ever, so why should I be upset? He's the one who lost out on my awesomeness! With that mentality I became a stronger person. Although much more guarded. Which is upsetting. It's more difficult for me to open up to other's now...but I'm working on it.

In August I was haphazardly introduced to Ross. My longtime best friend, Shannon...her boyfriend, Frank, literally yanked my arm one night at the bar (where I reluctantly met them for one of Frank's friend's birthday), threw me in front of this man with: "Haaaave you met Ross?" Straight out of How I Met Your Mother. So. Ridiculous. After an interesting initial meeting and giving him my phone number, we went on a few dates. A month later while we were on a camping trip to Ludington with Frank and Shannon he asked me to be his girlfriend! I was also hesitant about this at first but he has proven to be so gentlemanly. He's patient with me, kind, loving, and very devoted. I appreciate him so much. He's just as busy as I am so it works out.

I was accepted into a doctoral program at Wayne State (where I applied because of Lance--go figure) and decided to go there. I'm currently in my second semester and it's already kicking my butt! Ross is in his second semester of medical school; so we often have study dates during the week. I don't talk or see him as much as I would like to (especially compared to how it was with Lance) but the time I do get to be with him is absolutely fantastic. Even if we're not really doing anything! It's great in that respect.

That is essentially my life update; hah. I don't know who I'm writing this for these days. I guess it's nice to look back on it myself every so often. Heh. Over the past few months I've been in contact with Lance, which has also been surreal. He wants to try again with me. As much as I would have loved to go back and be with him...he hurt me too much; way too much. Twice. He ruined me. I can't trust him. It's heartbreaking and I finally cut off conversation with him (again) last week. It felt like we had broken up all over again and I was a wreck. I talked with Ross about it (we're trying to be as honest with each other as we can be in our relationship) and he was so supportive. Maybe things really will work out for the best.
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my room
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sleepy sleepy
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Hero-Monsta X
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Nooooo not  Ritsuka~ (kyaahhh Ritsukaaaaa~~~ X3) But YAMAPI~~~~~~~~ His new pv came out! (well the short version) and aww!! I really like it, it's soo "awwww sad" like...XD sorry..I'm feeling better, but still not good :/ I'm going to class tomorrow, because I really should do that. But yeah, YamaPi! So...the song doesn't really..sound like  him..his voice, but I like it anyways..so that's good...and then Sarah called me and we had a nice fangirlism talk xD and now I really want to listen to some JE right now..which is what I'm doing...God, do I love them..they're amazing. Great for when you're feeling down!!  I think..it's like a circle..when I'm feeling bad I'll start listening to jpop or kpop for a while..and it makes me happy~ the cuteness and general uplifting-ness XD of the songs is just a nice break! And then after awhile is the general "okay, I need to listen to some rock.  ""real music"" for those elitists." and so  I'll do that..and then when I fall back into one of my moods (such is happening now) I'll listen to absolutely any and everything that will help my mood. And I don't know..where  my current kick for a fandom will go from there but whatever!!! XD I'm listening to NEWS now..and awwww gosh I do just love 'em so much~ :3 IF THEY CAN GET THROUGH COLLEGE WHILE STILL BEING IDOLS I CAN TOO. WELL, MINUS ME BEING AN IDOL. (lawlzzz) Hey, if it works....why not? RighT?  XP Sorry I really don't know what I'm ranting about..I'm just starting to get worried about everything..but I can get through it..we can all get through it, every single one of us.....we just might need some help along the way.  So let's go, guys. Let's get through this. Together. <3

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bed!!!
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content content
Current Music:
Cherish-NewS
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I recently bought a new pair of shorts. Last year I bought a pair of cute yellow shorts, and I bought the same ones but in purple, without realizing how Uruha-esque they are. Nothing big or spectacular has happened, of course! XD I've seen Sarah a few times and we went to the movies..and still i'm hanging out with Deanna! It's nice, we're so crazy XDD Last week I was at her house and we watched the PSC concert and aww it was so cute. Although I kinda like ScReW...Byou's really attractive...>___> even if he sounds like a combination of Ruki and Kyo..which is pretty entertaining!! XP and then just the other day I was back at her house and we watched another PSC concert and then one by The GazettE and then a KAT-TUN one, too X3 teehee it was quite fun!! We ended up laughing and fangirling all night and we didnt get around to sleeping...so we decided for a naptime at 830 and ended up not waking up until 1230 XD so it was loads of funtiemz. and such. Then it was my dad's birthday and we just made some cake for him and stuff..nothing too special. And tonite Vince is coming up because he's got football camp and we're letting him sleep in the living room because well..it's just convienent. But its okay, I dont' mind TOO much..he's a real nice guy, pretty quiet and very respectful. So that's good. Although he's a bit arrogant XD BIG EGO.  But whatever I guess..hnm..I had more to say earlier but i dont remember! Oh well! I still havnt seen the new Harry Potter movie!! My mom won't let me go see it with any friends because we have to see it "altogether" meaning my mom, sisters and aunt. I dont see whats wrong with me seeing it more than once or anything but she's really being adamant about it...blahh whatever I guess.. and earlier I went to pick up my prescription and was hungry so i got a sammich :] it made me happy it was so yummy XD I went back home and got some potato chips and a coke and sat down and tried to find something on tv and so i went to the ondemand stuff to browse the free stuff andt they had some jrock stuff so of course i was waching it and it was just nice...to eat and enjoy that..I know..i'm that lame...!!! and I stil cant think of what I was going to say..oh well XDDD OH
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living room
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Current Music:
Marry Me- F.T.Island
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